1 year 9 months 13 days of memories

this time we really broke off le ...



days ago, im avoiding the problem.. i know it's not like myself ... to avoid problems ... but the question will come sooner or later ...

i dont bear to leave this relationship too ... so i keep on saying i dont know ... but part of my body language already gave me away ....

when we were together, we were those who dont think of future.. as long as we are happy now ...that is our main concern.....
But I'm 21 this year... at least 5 years down the road ... i planned to get married ..... but he only want to get marry after 30 .. i dont want my husband to be someone who gamble alot ... its hard for him to change.. like what he always used to tell me ... the machine is just infront of him ...

Till now i dont think i understd him alot .... and i think he also dont understd me ... he told me he dont want me to worry... but tts what gf are for what... to share all ur probs ...
For my side ... im a talkative person... i dont need him to call me everyday... but when i hv probs ... wanted to pick up the phone to call sumone to tok cok.. he would probably playing game...playing mj... outside with frens ... so i dropped the idea...

of coz there are other probs too... i know he got his reasons ... i know he is busy ... but aft i told him all my thoughts on sat .....on wed my body language jus gave me away ba .. i couldnt hold his hand le .... till im really confirm...

so i guess .. this is the best decision for the time being ba ...

i knoe u will be reading this, im the one who encourage u to take up studying again ...
promise me u will study hard and get ur diploma K? thats the best thing u can give me.
I will still be there if you have problems...
Thanks for all the memories.. =)