NeKo's BLoGGie

it's 3 am now .. couldnt get to bed .. little baby bear was not in my room today .. finally have a peace of mind but guess i'm used to falling asleep at 4am le ~~~

Closing my eyes..
i began to think back 2006 ..
honeymoon period of me and dar was mar till oct ..
nov..dec during my exams.. i didnt meet up much with him ..
even till now .. i feel so drifted away .. feeling more and more insecure ..
i dont feel we are that 'close' now .. HAI.. im now searching for it to come back .........

hope things will turn out better when he is back from harbin.

For the past year, i quarrelled with him for his gambling habit and more recent.. the 'friend issue'. Honestly, we seldom quarrel too .. basically dont have the chance. when i said something he dislike .. he will say.. 'i dont want quarrel with u..' it will keep my mouth shut .. coz he was always driving when we talk about those issues... i felt its kinda dangerous ~

Here's something i always wanted to clarify to u ..
sometimes it's not that i dont trust u .. it's the words u use make it misleading.
u said that u dont want me to go out with your frens, cause you scare i get the wrong idea.
u said that a marriage cant be gurantee as affairs are 'hard to say' (i know this is true..but please dont say it in front of ur future wife to be next time)

to ladies out there ~ does this 2 sentences make u feel even MORE insecured?

Like what i said .. i'm searching it back ....
coz i still wanna be with U!!!